Luvin You..

2007-01-28T23:47:00.001+08:00

hello there!! i havent blogged in ages!!
my keyboads still spoiled. huhu.

i got confirmd today!! (:
happy confirmation everyone!

everyone looked geat and smart.
ima upload some pictures:

baby, i miss you.

2007-01-28T23:47:00.000+08:00

2007-01-06T15:16:00.000+08:00

at my uncle's place.
i've been studying for about 2hours
but i cant get anything into my head

i can feel the pressure.
first 3days in school, bombarded with homework.
remedials start next week until 4.30
well, thats sacrifice. lol

2007-01-02T20:42:00.000+08:00

i cant live like this anymore.

i must admit i miss philippines alot. i miss everyone there, i miss my cousins, barkadas, everyone. especially my family.

i am kind of used to life there and its not as lonely. the sad state my life is in now.

all i have at home is a computer to keep me company, it feels as i am banished. feels as if im living in a world where the sole form of existance is me. only person to keep yourself going. i used to think staying alone was cool and stuff but now i realize what my family means to me. i really miss them and i cant live like this much longer. moreover my dad is going back to philippines soon who will be here for me? can i continue the last stretch of my secondary education without family support? i dont think i can take it... im thinking of them every single minute now i cant concentrate on the things that im doing, i feel lost. the best part is its not even a day, only about 12hours. abit more than a week to go. i cant carry on like this...

book me the next flight back to the philippines pretty please.

im certain to cry myself to sleep tonight.

2007-01-02T14:02:00.000+08:00

hey im back in singapore!

2006-12-30T22:04:00.000+08:00

Hear this, im yours, im at your feet..
Inside this head you still remain but faded letters are erased.

2006-12-30T21:46:00.000+08:00

and vien goes drinking again!
my cousin's family had a reunion.
and i tagged along as usual.
drank with the usual.not bad, finished 3bottles of pale pinser
then the place ran out of booze.

my heart began beating today.
hold your hands, and i tremble. dirsah

2006-12-29T03:57:00.000+08:00

irallam yoj dirsah,
bakit ang ganda mo?

2006-12-27T23:32:00.000+08:00

DAYUMM!
Pauleen Luna is on tv and in a bikini;
i think she's super proportionate and has the face.
perfection at its finest.

went to a wedding just now and christmas party after.
food was SUPERB and the wedding was amazing.
they had fireworks, the decoration was great.
the releasing of the doves was amazing.
the doves circled the reception place and stuck together.

made me think of what my wedding will be like,
next time down the road. haha

im trying to chat on e-messenger
but lag is being an ultimate whore.

dahil ikaw ang sigaw ng puso ko, ikaw ang nasa isip koang nais ko ay malaman mo, na ikaw ang tanging pangarap ng buhay, pag-ibig ko sa iyo ibibigay.

2006-12-26T00:39:00.000+08:00

HELLO(:

merry christmas to all!

christmas? didnt get much.
am satisfied with what i already have. (:
i've got some people's xmas presents here already. ^^

mine was f'in good until i drank til i dropped
and puked and felt like shitz0r. lol;
all thanks to 1877 brandy.
fckk, i wont be drinking in abit haha.
head hurted like wtf.

met my cousin's cousins and boy were they fun.
smoking&drinking to the chicks, lol. prettayy sight.
and they were like terrorist people with ak-47 and a cannon.

otherwise, its a fun day of smoking&amp;amp;amp;amp;amp;amp;amp;drinking&making friends.
and i suck at singing karaoke. kthxbye.

here are some pictures:

spot me?

10 shots before eating = redhead

terrorist?

check out the cannon!

at the fountain at someone's house. HUGE!

like the fountain, the house is HUGE.

2006-12-24T02:09:00.000+08:00

im an addict for dramatics.
love is a fast song, sadly my heart is not in motion. (:

hows everybody?
Christmas is like tomorrow!
fckkkk, i wanna be back before new year.

anyways, theres good music in the philippines too.
kamikazee, updharmadown, sandwich, join the club, urbandub.
some of philippine's finest. haha
the growing population of emo's too.

my cousin's band played at a christmas party.
they rocked, super good for 15 year olds. headbanging baby!
sadly only afew rockers there. =
hopefully i can get back before new year *x's fingers
first off i wanna have a drink and some smoke with my beloveds.
also i want to have a chuckle at the sec 1's when they come in.

anyways, totally screwed for school.
totally untouched.

and willy, i survived the f'ing typhoon #

2006-12-19T18:16:00.000+08:00

rawr!! hello everyone (:
i miss all of you.

i might get extended, so sad.
i was like "WTF!" when i got to know.
and i miss drinking, i joined my cousin and her friends the other day.
really reminded me of you people.

there are really very nice people here. haha.
and plenty of nice emo's here too.
i think the population is getting too high!

ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh, i am HOMESICK pls..

2006-12-12T16:11:00.000+08:00

hey, i miss people in singapore.
really...

2006-12-08T13:56:00.000+08:00

hello there, got myself a pair of vans shoes!
and i need 2 more pairs lol.

anyways last night was super funny.
i was dared by my cousins to buy CONDOM(s).
lol, so we went to a mall and to the pharmacy.
i asked for condoms and couldnt stop laughing.
haha the 2 saleslady (they looked kinda young) were giggling too.

super malu uh..
then they teased me "the condoms are for you noh?" (direct translation from tag)
haha, told them it was a dare lol.
but it was some funny shit ass dare.

i had to make 2 trips cause they said 1 was not enough =.=
so in total i got 3, rofl. and the prize for doing the dare, Starbucks and Jollibee!

2006-11-27T12:23:00.000+08:00

rawr! its been awhile since i blogged.
awhile since ive been on the computer too.
lols. back in the Philippines. =]

and boy does it feel good.
i miss so many ppl!
and i miss fagging with them so much.

haha, fagging with friends = t3h s3x0r.
well, i miss them!!!

sticks here are ubercheap. $1 = 1 pack.
ima die earlyyy!

2006-11-23T10:04:00.000+08:00

你妈妈没有笔!
haha, thats what i wrote instead of mao.
was supposed to write mao, but ended up come out bi.
somemore i confident i was correct sia! wtf.

lol. happy birthday sam once again. (:
and my flight got changed again, 24th!
woke up to the sight of dad booking the tix online.

and i think i forgot to ask for money =x
lol. im mr broke boy.
somemore meeting willy, the 2 aunties and leisha later.

meow.

2006-11-18T05:16:00.000+08:00

i just got back from skating.
and it was fun i tell you.
even if i did not do much.
i passed on the last trip to simei.

watching han and man ollieing down 11steps,
fucking crazy shit, damn ppl not afraid of death.
but it was very inspiring.

gotta brush up the lands and i landed my shove it just now.
heh, not constant though.

skating on main roads = teh sex.
had an ampai incident, everyone cleared in like 3seconds lol.
RUNNNN BIATCH RUNN!!

anyways im tired now, and ima go to bed.
goodnight all!

2006-11-15T22:32:00.000+08:00

today was fun.
vivo'd like finally lol.

but before that went cs
and to simei to jam.

my throat bled, while screaming yours.

2006-11-15T09:40:00.000+08:00

i couldnt sleep last night, i wonder why.
well, its best kept a secret.

hoho, going out later.
jamming w/ nikita, willyJR and more.
heh, i think i wanna have a break skating.
lazyyyy laaah.

anyways i miss a ton of people out there.
of course, one of them is you. (:

2006-11-14T02:21:00.000+08:00

y halo thar, vien is back.
back from camp. he is having camp withdrawal syndromes.
lol. joking. =]

camp was AWESOME!
yeah, and i dont regret.

ive dont my hair too.
strands of brown.
and oh, im going back to the phil's on the 23rd.
(HAPPY BDAY SAM!)

so tag what you want me to get you.
p.s. no levis jeans ;)

2006-11-07T23:52:00.000+08:00

ive lost the fire to blog, lol
but finally after watching a youtube movie.
suddenly got the feel to blog again.

its a guy playing the guitar and singing.
his got superb vocals and he dominates his accoustic.
fit enough to have labels of his own, imo.

he has 35vids of him doing covers and some songs of his own.
this kind of people really make me want to pick up my guitar,
and practice like a ASJFkAGF again. and be as good as him.
check out his goo goo dolls cover - iris. perfecto.

moreover his a pinoy ^^ LOL =]
idol ko!!

2006-10-26T22:05:00.000+08:00

emoscreamo jamming @ home.
playing and singing to tunes of diaryofjane&yourguardianangel.

Desperate, I will crawl
Waiting for so long
No love, there is no love
Die for anyone
What have I become

Something's getting in the way
Something's just about to break
I will try to find my place in the diary of Jane
As I burn another page
As I look the other wayI still try to find my place
In the diary of Jane.

why am i doing this to myself?
why am i doing this to you?
why am i doing this to everyone else?
why am i here.

2006-10-26T14:56:00.000+08:00

i know everything.
without anyone telling.

damn im good.
so theres no use hiding from me now.

2006-10-21T10:56:00.000+08:00

The tagged victim has to come up with 9 different points of their perfect lovers.Tag 4 victims to join this game and leave a comment on their page saying they've been tagged.If tagged the 2nd time, there's no need to post again.

gender : female
all she needs to be is..

1. true.

and thats all its needed, no need 9 points 1 will do.

but for now, i dont need love in my life.
because, of some.

now next 4 are whoever they wish to be!

2006-10-20T06:21:00.000+08:00

i read, re-read and re-read your post again.
like 90% of point you have against me are in the past.
dayumm, are you still living in the past?
or get some new fresh points for the present.
people change over time, do you not understand. lol.

2006-10-19T21:41:00.000+08:00

HI EVERYONE!!
im a despo, gayfck and emoshit!! w00ts.

despo for jumping from girl-to-girl for like 3 times, early this year.
look at others they hit 19 in 2 months.
i hit 3 in 6 months, i aint so despo after all. LOL.
ohh, im gay. damn, i must like guys lolol.
you must be a MAN!!
look after June, 2 in 4 months.
z0M9 iM dEsPO!!

hate me, hate me. i hate you too.
now, go hear more about me from pornstar, your bestfriend.
go and like whoever lah, i dont give a damn.
be tog Qayum lah, i wont give a damn again.

and never did i say i was perfect.
lastly, i dont wanna ever end my life.
suicidal is gay, since you talk about suicide so much.
why dont you quit whining and just go jump off a building.

turn it around bitch-flirt combo, so its my fault again.
i never said you were that, you ADMITTED. lol.
just like ugly, stupid, yadayadyadyayda.
go take a hike (y)

2006-10-19T19:33:00.000+08:00

am sickkkk ):
sick of everything.

breaking in cold swear now.
migrain yesterday, and high fever today.
feeling weak and have no appetite.

sorry mar, didnt go to the scdf thingy.
i'll go tmr, despite this illness.

2006-10-18T21:19:00.000+08:00

liar, thats what you are.
breaking hearts, your job.
i dont want anything to do with you
cause i hate everything about you.

so dont bother to even glance at me,
im never looking at you again.
and its not even a fight, self acclaimed bitch.

your secret aint so secret anymore.
what do you take me for? some dumb fuck?
go awayy, get away from mee.

ugly, stupid, suicidal, emofuck anymore supportive words?
get a life, go take a hike.

2006-10-14T16:59:00.000+08:00

came into my dreams, you did.

i wish i had never woken up.

and oh i kinda combined pictures tog and made this.

rotting at home. zzz.

2006-10-13T23:17:00.000+08:00

phone is temporary cut,
contact me at 94507147.

dad forgot to pay the bill.
l0l0l0l0l.

2006-10-12T20:16:00.000+08:00

2 months of courting
2 weeks of anticipating
1440hours of fun and sadness.
4654612 times of being let down.

its sad to say, its now over.
one day, everything will end.
and today is the end of "us"
if there ever was an us.

to be frank, i was ready to love you, whole heartedly.
that is if i was given the chance. i was prepared to lay my heart.
it has been messed up from the start,
so many misunderstandings in a short period of time.
just like you said, we're worst than a couple.
i envy others whom i see, who progress fairly quick.
i like you, you like me, lets be tog.
if that was just like you and me.

all i ever wanted was your whole-hearted love,
never was i good enough to win your heart.
its been a great journey for me,
ive learned how to be tolerent and patient.

anyways thanks for your love (if you ever),
im very sad to say this is the end.
everything in life will go, one day or another.
thats the important of days because to me, it was
today or never.

i thought maybe after some time and understanding,
you would have changed. however sad to say youve proven me wrong.
i thought you would understand me, just like i tried to understand you.
i knew you've been in contact with others, i just closed an eye.
i wished you wouldve understood me the same.
i overlooked your rep, cause i believed you were changed

afterwall, we're all humans and humans do make mistakes.
and that is when you really learn to love someone,
when you realize they are humans and have flaws.
you will truly love someone when you realize their flaws,
because you learn to forgive them for it.
nobody in this world is perfect anyways.

im left with nothing,
nothing, but a hole in my heart.
ive edited the post before,
because vulgarities make things worst.

im sorry, youve let me down one time too many. and i keep getting hurt time and time again. its hard to plan something and anticipate and when it gets cancelled last minute its heartpain. anyways its not the first, nor the second and definately not the third. i do love you, but im too afraid now.youve got others to attend to, anyways.

2006-10-08T08:54:00.000+08:00

RJA - my guardian angel.

2006-10-07T23:00:00.000+08:00

the doubt in you, doubts me.
so, i dont know.

2006-10-02T19:56:00.000+08:00

tomorrows english!
soo fast, haha.

bangs head against wall
i am very scared
and i'm like uh-uh.

GOOD LUCK TO EVERYONE OUT THERE!
rawr!

______
x. your gun, my head, cupid's bullet.
you're worth waiting for; just 2 more weeks. (:

mood : apathetic
listening to : diary of jane - breaking ben

2006-10-01T22:26:00.000+08:00

happy childrens day to all (:
and GOOD LUCK for eoy's!

this is bad, im falling ill just before the exams.
slight fever yesterday, sore throat now;
hopefully i wont be ill.

take care everyone;
im off to bed!

gnights ((:

2006-09-27T20:57:00.000+08:00

hello hello,
took a break at studying today,
went to skate at stage;
oo, member baru Side Angle Side. =D

ive been paying attention alot,
been doing homework and more importantly,
been revising.

dad looks weak, maybe his illness is kicking in;
boy im scared.. sigh..

oh dearest, i miss you now.

2006-09-24T09:35:00.000+08:00

hiatus.
(i hope)

gonna study later with samantha,
the official start of "study week"

and oh, my right leg still hurts. ):
i think i tore muscles.

2006-09-23T19:51:00.000+08:00

super tirrrred day!
4 hours of straight skating.

not bad turn out today, 17 people!
skate at st 11, then to the stage behind complex.
i especially enjoyed street skating, its funn!

tried to manual down a 4step- curb.
didnt land though, next time i go there MUST land!
if not, dont go home.

thanks to boss, arvin, horoh-horoh, ariffin and to those who tried to help me. thanks alot eh! sorry i never land, but next time i will!

2006-09-22T20:22:00.000+08:00

anyways, my phone line might get cut so dont be surprised.
im feeling weirded&EMO.

shoot me, i beg you, so i wont hurt anyone anymore.

i wish i had a time machine,to turn back time.

just surrender - tell me everything

"tell me everything will be alright"

2006-09-22T19:42:00.000+08:00

a thousand and one apologies;
hi im sorry, ive gone too far. )):

i'm all to blame.

2006-09-20T21:01:00.000+08:00

i cant hold on no more,
i cant pretend no more,
pretend that i dont miss you,
pretend that i dont care, i love you.

I am weak without you
I become vulnerable because
the Love that was lost
from you could've lifted me

As long as these eyes can see,
Until this heart stops beating
For as long as I can afford
To remember you

In you, I found my life
To me, your love is pure

Chorus:
When what was fated for me
Becomes the best for you
I will make you
my life's sweetest memory
But it wasn't easy for me
To leave the tracks of my life
That was carved eternal
as the sweetest memory

In you, I found my life
To me, your love is pure

2006-09-19T20:40:00.000+08:00

neutralised.
whoops, or did my heart just go pH7.

like aj said, the problem is my feeling is neutral.

todays a tiring day, wanted to study a math,
but in the end, couldnt because we skated.
tomorrow, no skating STUDY HARDCORE@@

oh, btw iqahhhhhhhgayyyyyyyyyy!!. =P

2006-09-17T22:31:00.000+08:00

everybody being emo, turns me emo.

please excuse me my love, i won't take long,
all i want is for you to hear all the things,
from this heart of mine, this i give to you.
i hope you listen[understand] what my song is saying.
i try to give back[refuse], or give to someone else
but i can't forget your fragrance brought by the air,
when the first time i met you i couldn't believe,
it was like a dream and i was in heaven.

all i want is for you to know that im in love with you,
i hope you feel[understand] the beat of my heart,
all i want is for you to know that you are always in my dreams,
and for the distance between our worlds to shorten.

my heart is searching for your love(listen to the beat of this heart)
my heart won't forget the love and joy you have brought(from the very bottom of my heart)
and if you can ever return (go ahead don't be shy)
the way my heart yearns for your love.....

but now i know,it was meant to be different,
what can you not like about him?
he is everything you ever wanted, unlike me.
i wish you'll find out even when i am gone,
there will always be love over you {his love for her will remain}
you won't be left alone,
you'll always be taken care of until the very end,
my love for you will remain true..

however, swore i have.
and stick by it i must.
what a pity.

2006-09-17T07:50:00.000+08:00

hello, its been awhile since ive been blogging.
past 2 days were uber fun.

friday slacked w/ willy afterschool til about 2
and then, to festival park!!
haha, amazingly i managed to concentrate and study math.
then the fun part comes in, camwhoring LOL.
its uberfun, on the whole.
until the men in blue crashers came, got screened twice.
then we had to go seperate ways home, lol.

yesterday was Farhanah's bday!
HAPPPPPPY BIRRTHHDAY!!
woohoo. we went to her chalet.
haha, the food not bad, delicious.
anyways, i treasure yesterday's busride home. =D

swore it would be the last misunderstanding,
and swore also if after that im to REALLY give up.
sighhh, hope everything turns out right. ):

2006-09-14T20:16:00.000+08:00

today was an a-okay day.
no a math test! woOo!
i cant cabut MT no longer,
teacher wants me to sit in class.
this is good cause i no longer need to go to dunman. (:

i swear, i hate some teachers.
petty relief teachers and *coughnorthasiacough*
hctibeid!! if your gonna waste my efforts..

and somebody's hawttt.
too many hawttt (!) people nowadays.
ohoh and btw,
my hands only sweat when hawtbabes are around.
^^ RANDOM.

2006-09-13T18:54:00.000+08:00

yessa! hair finally passed.
after two days of cabuting. (:
im S-A-F-E! well, for awhile more at least. :D

kau selalu didalam hatiku. <3s
miss you like woeh...
poor thing, migrains. get better soon. (:

2006-09-12T17:34:00.000+08:00

so long, and goodbye..
eergh, nvm.

anyways i get irritated w/ people who talk or speak like this :
eUUuu beRri dE pweTtY lEhX.

n33bs, GO TAKE A HIKE! (y)

2006-09-06T23:13:00.000+08:00

tmr's a week since i last saw you,
i miss you, damnit!

I'll be the one who will make all your sorrows undone
I'll be the light When you feel like there's nowhere to run
I'll be the one...To hold you, and make sure that you'll be alright..

Just take my hand, baby please

2006-09-06T08:56:00.000+08:00

lovesick, or rather, sick of love.

2006-09-04T08:54:00.000+08:00

you might be a beautiful letdown,
but i love you still.

not now, its not the right time..
i'll wait, until then.

the answer is always uncertain.
can it be certain, for once..

2006-09-03T22:32:00.000+08:00

tiring day again.
got owned many times, like free like that.
word of the day: BAIK UHH!!
i dont like people who suck at skating but have many things to say, pure arrogance. haha lucky the TSA people owned him. bye bye skaterfag. "BAIK UHH!"

anyways some things got me excited at night,
just to be let down.. thats life i guess.
waste time planning and in the end doesnt happen.

some things you cant force.
ANYTHING to be with you..

2006-09-02T11:55:00.000+08:00

conquer your fears!

haha, got some girls number for __.
one fear i conquered, talking to strangers.

another one would be conquering the fear of the m14 ramp at bedok skatepark. haha, the next to conquer : drop in at the bowl and then drop in at the quarter pipe then the half pipe.

thanks to kuya Owen aka Nemo for teaching more new ways of ollieing and stuff.

i miss you

2006-09-01T22:40:00.000+08:00

TIRING DAY;

geek in the pink - jason mraz
I don't care what she might think about me
She'll get by without me if she wants
Well, I could be the one to take her home
Baby we could rock the night alone
If we never get down it wouldn't be a let down
But sugar don't forgetin' what you already know
That I could be the one to turn you out
We could be the talk across the town
Don't judge it by the color, confuse it for another
You might regret what you let slip away

2006-08-31T23:47:00.000+08:00

just listening to Creed's one last breath's intro
makes me want to pick up the guitar again.
looking for someone to teach me haha. *coughKLcough*
*winks*

just came home from a little bit of skating,
im tired, warn out and..
im missing you soo, this i cant deny.

my heart aches, as your tears fall.
i wanna rid of all your misery.

you are the treasure that i seek.

2006-08-31T17:00:00.000+08:00

running in the rain!
primary school memories. (:
old faces&running in the rain is LOVE.

2006-08-30T20:12:00.000+08:00

with one last breath,
im here without you baby.

2006-08-30T18:19:00.000+08:00

WE'RE NOT FUCKING TOGETHER
now go hump a tree.
i misunderstood, overconfidence.

i bet a tree's life is better than mine.
i love you to death.
i'd rather die than live without you, baby thats no lie.

everybody tries to put some love on the line,
and everybody feels a broken heart sometimes..

2006-08-29T17:55:00.000+08:00

today sucks, i almost died.
a long day w/out talking to you, sigh.
overwhelming conflicts, problem month..

i tried to look at you and smile,
only to be seen through.

this is the last of illusions;
this line keeps playing in my head, i wonder why.
im dying to hear your voice, are WE?

2006-08-28T17:45:00.000+08:00

i'll keep you my dirty little secret (:

2006-08-27T11:15:00.000+08:00

everythings twisted
everything sucks when your gone.

well, my bad for being such an ass.
everybody makes mistakes, so forgive me. (:

your in my heart and on my mind.

2006-08-26T09:31:00.000+08:00

i.. i cant do anything..
unless you do it with me.

sincerely, sincerely..
i miss you so;

2006-08-26T08:20:00.000+08:00

reached home at 2.30 this;
long chat w/ willy until he decided to stay over.
anyways, it helped a little.

still, you lingered in my head.
cause i know i love you still.
many many.

the more i deny it,
the more i think of it.
its not i do not want to like you,
its just the little things you do, which hits the spot.

hope we'll meet later..
so i can explain things;
especially, if we could start afresh..

id do anything to get to you,
even if i have to run from tamp to bedok, at 12am.
im sorry.

2006-08-25T14:54:00.000+08:00

ive been dying to reach you.

make progress just to be stalled;
i cant stand the way you get people jealous, on purpose.
it carries on, the burden increases.

it hurts, it hurts.
it was meant to..

sometimes i think your fx'd.
but sometimes its just me.

dont think you feel the same way to me anyways;
bye my lover, or maybe one last shot..

you've got your gun on my head,
pull the trigger baby, pleasee.

EMO PEOPLE DIE, BABY!
that includes me, id fxd myself if i could.

2006-08-24T19:44:00.000+08:00

everyday i try my best to think of something to contest with inside jokes and other folks who got much more to say..

im feeling lousy now,
as if you would care..
at this moment now,
it doesnt even matter.

sometimes it just hits the spot.
the weakest;

player mah, some.

2006-08-24T19:39:00.000+08:00

lies, all lies.

2006-08-23T22:24:00.000+08:00

BUTTONS!
when you sway, i go weak..

2006-08-22T20:56:00.000+08:00

todays a normal day.
stayed back after school.
watched 3A+E dance. haha.
not bad, not bad.

HELLO SEXY,
cant take my eyes of you.

willy got his teeth back.
haha, they gave him plastering.
and thats the end of my day.

didnt go to tampines gym.
did a short gym session in school though.
til the teacher kicked us out. ):

2006-08-21T21:42:00.000+08:00

i'll be there, if you want me to.
friends weigh heavier than anything under family.
i'll be your ear, i'll wipe away your tears..

2006-08-20T22:16:00.000+08:00

oober tired.
skate swim skate skate skate.
gonna start pulling off moving ollies.
bayonon&alex gonna start of their 4sets.

lost 2kg so far! YESSA!
gonna start gym-ing soon!

good grades?; for you i will. (:

sincerely yours - hellogoodbye

2006-08-19T22:31:00.000+08:00

no __ from her. ):
aww, haha. anyways these stuff can wait.
but its for real, not playing. :D

Fall Out - Get Busy
this has been said so many times that,
im not sure if it matters.
if you are the shores then i am the waves,
begging for big moons, ooons.

I LIKETH YOU MANY MANY.
sorry for any inconvenienced cause. (x
i'll behave, promise ;)

2006-08-19T14:21:00.000+08:00

your __ , pwetty pwease? :D

2006-08-19T00:23:00.000+08:00

missed a chance to meet;
DAMN!

2006-08-17T21:10:00.000+08:00

padadum is love (x

2006-08-14T17:30:00.000+08:00

abstract emotions from my life;
and itd be 'perfecto'.

2006-08-12T23:45:00.000+08:00

tired tired, worn out.
i need someone to talk to.
haha, secret st0ffs. =D

awaiting willy&alex's arrival.
they're staying over to study.

ive got limited number of friends in school,
some just backstab, which makes me wonder..
how many TRUE friends i have. =]

2006-08-12T01:00:00.000+08:00

DIE DIE DIE DIE DIE!!
everyone DIE! =x
*headbangs*

ookay chill.
emogay day.

cant wait for sunday.. =]
i miss you.

2006-08-09T12:24:00.000+08:00

HAPPY NATIONAL DAY, EVERYONE.
stuck at home for the moment,
will be going out later, i hope.

undo-ing stuffs:
And so love can wait,
my soul slides away,
but don't look back in anger I hear you say
im hopeless;

2006-08-09T00:07:00.000+08:00

But I’m in so deep
You know I’m such a fool for you
You got me wrapped around your finger
Do you have to let it linger
Do you have to, do you have to
Do you have to let it linger

2006-08-08T22:25:00.000+08:00

boo! tiring day today..
woke up at 5.30am, had to be in school early.
to do ava and stuff. worn out.

school, then tm to catch click!
funny ass show, haha. =]
GO WATCH IT!! comedy/touching.

then home, and out to meet willy&alex @ 8.
skated for the first time with boon's deck.
can skate normally now, but balance still not there.sigh;
balance to kick turns to tic tac and finally ollies.

tired, very tired..
goodnight everyone.

your, my burning desire.
baby, just dont know how to say these words to you.
Despondent, distracted,You're vicious and romantic.
you are everything i wanted, cause your everything im not.

2006-08-06T22:43:00.000+08:00

its you i can't deny.
your my blue heaven.

todays a tiring day,
church, town, home, bike! =D
and i just reached home.
exhausted.

[x]] nighties and loves!

2006-08-05T06:46:00.000+08:00

hello everyone! =]
im going to batam like now.
first time, haha. =x *blush*
like im dressed and all and dads nagging.
sigh................................

went to FOP yesterday was good.
CCC band was nice again.
Don Moen's songs are sentimental.
managed to see boon, cals, cx, hs, ed.
didnt manage to see qiu lin ): sorry sis!

i'll be your DISTRACTION.
we lay we lay together together,
just not too close too close.
i just wanna bring you down so badly.

2006-08-03T10:28:00.000+08:00

woke up at 7 too late for school.
did not go in the end. hehe.
but its gonna suck, important subjects today. ):
hopefully ms lee has night study tonight.

last nights dream was nice,
what a waste, i woke up..

You've got this new head filled up with smoke.
Well I trip over everything you say.
You hollow out my hungry eyes x2

2006-08-02T21:28:00.000+08:00

hawthawtHEAT

today was a fast day;
painting keychains and all;
budget nail polish = acrylic paint. lol

after school had parade rehearsal.
didnt even have to set up and then slack.

watched parade and played soccer;
and video games. hahaha.
after everything slacked abit at the porch.
my long pants got owned, its spoiled.
went to bubble tea shop for dinner!
then said bye with them bedokians, and 15 home.

your hawthawthawt;
it was 3070degrees, around you.
just shoot me, cause il never be good enough!
(i have a bad feeling about this x2)

*im S-H-Y*

and oh, LOL at my dumb blonde jokes;
il hold on until the end.

2006-08-01T20:22:00.000+08:00

let me sweep away,
let me sweep away,
let me sweeap against the currents.
(repeat x3070)

the most irritating 3 lines on earth (x

2006-07-30T23:03:00.000+08:00

emotionalrollercoaster

i'll just go sleep now.
you cant sleep dead and wake up dead.

songs for the emotionally wounded;
mood: apathetic . melt away in the summer air.

2006-07-30T10:04:00.000+08:00

i woke up late for service today ):
guess i was uber tired last night.
so i'll go to HT today for cath class.

Sentosa was quite fun,
at least we had something to do. lols
like play ball and play in the water.
met new friend, celine's cuz, shermain or smth like that.
haha. it was also a good place to bond and get closer to people.
i almost lost my wallet, containing my i/c.
phew, luckily noone stole it.

off to go prepare for cath class in 45mins now.
take care all, cya.

imTWISTED.

2006-07-28T19:13:00.000+08:00

.x3053x3070x.

Araw-gabi nasa isip ka
Napapanaginip ka kahit sa'n man magpunta
Araw-gabi nalalasing sa tuwa kapag kapiling ka
Baka lang... araw-gabi tayong dal'wa ??.

mahal kita, buong puso.

Pasensya na aking mahal
di naman ako magtatagal
nais ko lang marinig mo ang bawat nilalaman
ng puso kong ito inaalay ko sayo
dinggin mo sana mga sinasabi ng awitin ko
pilitin mang ibalin at sa iba'y isalin
ay di malimot ang halimuyak na hatid ng hangin
ng una kang makita hindi makapaniwala
parang panaginip at langit aking nadarama

nais kong malaman mong ikaw ang aking iniibig
sana ay dinggin mo ang tibok nitong dibdib
nais kong malaman mong ikaw ang nasa panaginip
at magkalapit agwat ng ating daigdig

sana'y malaman mo na mawala man ako
ay may pag-ibig na laging gumagabay sayo
di ka pababayan,laging aalagaan
hanggang sa dulo ay tunay ang aking naramdaman

hinahanap ng puso ang pag-ibig mo (makinig ka sana sakin)
hindi ito malilimutan ng pagmamahal at ligaya na dala mo (laman ng aking damdamin)
kung saka sakli na kaya mo pang ibalik (sige na wag kang magalinlangan)
ang dating pagtingin sa puso kong nananabik pa sa iyo

and the heart stops beating...

2006-07-27T20:37:00.000+08:00

I found my peace in Him alone.

and now my mind, heart and soul is at peace,
I know everything will be alright just the way it is! =]
FOREVER I AM CHANGED BY YOUR LOVE!

Majesty...
Majesty...

Your grace has found me just as I am
Empty handed but alive in Your hands.

Forever I am changed by Your love..

2006-07-27T15:28:00.000+08:00

Please don't get me wrong
Because I'll never let this go
But I can't find the words to tell you
I don't want to be alone
But now I feel like I don't know you

Maybe if my heart stops beating
It won't hurt this much..

2006-07-25T20:10:00.000+08:00

hello everyone, sorry havent been blogging lately.
i have cut down my online time too. hehe.
ive been trying to study for the past week but end up getting distracted.
and even when i want to study thered always be something missing,
the Calculator =.=" LOL! hehe.

i need serious help with trigo,
i dont wanna lose out too much, im trying to catch up.
i dont get the whole point of trigo, (thats how bad it is)
i understand toa cah soh though!
luckily i already understand functions, so it wont add on the the burden!
VNKs VONNI! (:

ateeeeeeeee, aral na tayo! =x
get well soon hah. at the snap of my fingers your migrain dissapears.
*SNAP* oops, your head dissapeared :p hehehe. ulit!

im studying now. but nothing seems to be absorbing into my head.
i need someone to teach me, il ask ms lee but anyone else?
please please, im in desperation to study!

2006-07-19T22:53:00.000+08:00

missing someone is an elusive feeling
it follows you around like a shadow
it creeps into your heart quietly
and in a blink of an eye, it swallows you into loneliness.

slowdancing in the inside.
p.s. vien is high ! (x

2006-07-17T06:09:00.000+08:00

hello everyone,
enough with the partying and time to get serious.
i need to find study partners,
and i need aides hehe, especially in double math and physics.
could anyone help?

time to put everything aside,
and get down to business, study.
CT's are near, and i cant flunk.

2006-07-16T21:30:00.000+08:00

BAYBEATSo6rocked!
mosh mosh mosh MOSHH.
jump and hit high wall and get knockedout.
shove homopervs and own luggages.
drink and puke and bleed and die.
jump, jump. JUMPJUMPJUMPAAA!

well missed todays one ):
todays a bad day. lost $50.
then feeling abit depressed for no reason.
ima just scream my lungs and relieve myself.

pressures building up on me,
temptations grabbing hold on me.
am I wasting all my time?

2006-07-12T19:46:00.000+08:00

"You also can be a good person even if you are a catholic or in any faith... it actually depends on the individual.."

Yes, that is what most people say. However, the environment in the churches are two different things. Some people say the environment you are in does not matter, i would disagree. For example, you put a bean in the light and another in darkness. The one in the light is bound to sprout and the one in darkness will be unable to overcome dormancy due to the environment. The one in sunlight has been provided a favourable environment to grow in, thus, sprouting and growing.

now replace the seeds with vien. haha. maybe not so drastic til no light but these are the environments i face now and of course I WANNA BE IN THE LIGHT! (:

Some have seen a change in my life, some have not. i dont mind because God sees and knows everything!

today i just blessed back someone who has been blessing me for awhile now. its a good thing because i learn how to be less selfish and more selfless. the walk of my spiritual life so far is so good. no more swearing, lesser annoying people and if i do il say sorry in the end. =D being a christian in school is so much more difficult, but that difficulty CAN be OVERCOMED! ((:

now, lets rid the world of hate.
and inject love to everyone's hearts instead.

for one who does not love does not know God.

2006-07-10T19:37:00.000+08:00

When you are sad i will dry your tears
When you are scared i will ease your fears

When you are worried i will give you hope
If you want to give up i'll help you cope

When you're lost and cant see the light
I'll be your beacon shining so bright

This is my oath that i pledge to end

Why you you may ask?
because you're my friend. (:

2006-07-09T23:51:00.000+08:00

LiEk om9 GaYisM!!1!11one!1eleven!!11

hehe, the past few days were super fun.
and i enjoyed fellowship over these days.

on friday, Kendrick and Esther got married
*WOOHOO!!* CONGRATS haha.
they look super hot in their wedding photos lah.
after that, went with Josh to meet di and gang at City Hall.
for Aaron's concert, was nice and i enjoyed myself too.
haha, with von beside me? R-E-T-A-R-D-E-D.
*bell* AHHHH ITS THE FIRE ALARM!! hehe.
then afters we went to celebrate Ben's birthday.
ended up sleeping @ di's with Ben and Celine.
haha, went to eat dinner than bowl too.
ALMOST scored my first strike like 3 times!
sigh, improvement from last time. 35points *YAY*

today went to service @ ubt.
was fun, and nice especially the childrens worship.
haha, NOONE CAN TAKE MY JESUS AWAY!
went to town after service, stoned.

zarrahs after, got ourselfs wet by the rain.
and crossdressed after. HI, WERE GAY not.
BTW, WILLY HAS BOOBS.
hehe, thanks for FEEDING us te =D
see lah, you make me fat
but i still loves ya!

and KL got me my bible, YAY!
getting in tomorrow. think i shall bring Cds tomorrow too.
thanks alot KL.

the 3 live manakins

aaron

group photo!

two psychotix (X

2006-07-04T21:46:00.000+08:00

IF YOU WANT ME TO

The pathway is broken and the signs are unclear.
And I dont know the reason why You brought me here.
But just because You love me, the way that You do,
I’m gonna walk through the valley if You want me to.

No, Im not who I was when I took my first step.
And Im clinging to the promise that Youre not through with me yet.
So if all of these trials bring me closer to You,
Then I will go through the fire if You want me to.

It may not be the way I would have chosen
When You lead me through a world thats not my home.
But You never said it would be easy.
You only said I’ll never go alone.

So when the whole world turns against me and Im all by myself.
And I cant hear You answer my cries for help.
Ill remember the suffering that Your love put You through.
And I will walk through the darkness if You want me to.

Cause when I cross over Jordan, Im gonna sing, gonna shout.
Im gonna look into Your eyes and see You never let me down.
So take me on the pathway that leads me home to You
And I will walk through the valley if You want me to
Yes I will walk through the valley if You want me to.

"For I know the plans I have for you," declares the LORD, "plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future."

Trust in the LORD with all thine's heart. (:

Ive made a promise to God;
and its only good i keep it.

LORD, seal my heart;
seal my lips, help me focus on YOU alone.

2006-07-03T22:13:00.000+08:00

haha, some verses which are good. (:
i heard about/ read today!.

Romans 8:38-39
38For I am convinced that neither death nor life, neither angels nor demons, neither the present nor the future, nor any powers, 39neither height nor depth, nor anything else in all creation, will be able to separate us from the love of God that is in Christ Jesus our Lord. =))

Leviticus 19:28
28 You shall not make any cuttings in your flesh for the dead, nor tattoo any marks on you: I am the LORD.
NEVER will i have any thoughts of getting any tattoo or anything after this piercing anymore.

Luke 8:4-8
4While a large crowd was gathering and people were coming to Jesus from town after town, he told this parable: 5"A farmer went out to sow his seed. As he was scattering the seed, some fell along the path; it was trampled on, and the birds of the air ate it up. 6Some fell on rock, and when it came up, the plants withered because they had no moisture. 7Other seed fell among thorns, which grew up with it and choked the plants. 8Still other seed fell on good soil. It came up and yielded a crop, a hundred times more than was sown." When he said this, he called out, "He who has ears to hear, let him hear."

Matthew 7:24-27
The Wise and Foolish Builders
24"Therefore everyone who hears these words of mine and puts them into practice is like a wise man who built his house on the rock. 25The rain came down, the streams rose, and the winds blew and beat against that house; yet it did not fall, because it had its foundation on the rock. 26But everyone who hears these words of mine and does not put them into practice is like a foolish man who built his house on sand. 27The rain came down, the streams rose, and the winds blew and beat against that house, and it fell with a great crash."

Philipians 3:12-15
12 Not that I have already attained, or am already perfected; but I press on, that I may lay hold of that for which Christ Jesus has also laid hold of me. 13 Brethren, I do not count myself to have apprehended; but one thing I do, forgetting those things which are behind and reaching forward to those things which are ahead, 14 I press toward the goal for the prize of the upward call of God in Christ Jesus.

Jeremiah 17:7-8
7 " Blessed is the man who trusts in the LORD,
And whose hope is the LORD.
8 For he shall be like a tree planted by the waters,
Which spreads out its roots by the river,
And will not fear[a] when heat comes;
But its leaf will be green,
And will not be anxious in the year of drought,
Nor will cease from yielding fruit.

thanks to KL and calz, for quotes.

Let us pray, for the LORD to light our path, so we can follow in his ways.

2006-07-01T14:07:00.000+08:00

1 million souls less in hell, 1 million souls more in heaven!
its amazing how one man has saved millions!.

and still, THERES A WHOLE WORLD YET TO BE SAVED!
lets learn how to be fishers of man;
learn how to cast our nets, AND pull them in!
for the gospel is the rock that never rocks!
every soul saved is one less in hell! we can paint the world red!
with the blood of our saviour, Jesus Christ!
we are called upon to release his power.

SICKNESS is not the ultimate evil,
therefore HEALING is not the ultimate good!
SIN is the ultimate evil,
therefore SALVATION is the ultimate good!

God has a plan for us, far bigger than what we think!
and WE can never fail in God, because God NEVER fails!
God has no maximum!

every flame bears a name, and one of the flame bears YOUR name;
God, send down my flame.
fire fall down, fire fall down on us, we pray..

"Lord, what plan have you got through me?"
Teach me, and i will spread your words oh Lord;
wisdom&understanding;

Let the humble come and give thanks,
To the One who made us, the One who saved us!
I WILL BOAST IN THE LORD MY GOD!
I WILL BOAST IN THE ONE WHO'S WORTHY!

# open the eyes of my heart__

2006-06-30T16:42:00.000+08:00

hello everyone!! (: imissyoo!
hehe, how are you?.

my first week of school so far had been fun, ive swapped my seat from the back all the way to the front. yeah, you probably guessed it right.. after the poor results from mid terms, i need to buck up and start scoring a's again.

so far, so good. I can manage to cope with both math, just struggling behind a little. I wish we can get a teacher like Mr Ong, if Mrs Leong cant back in time. me need help with logarithms, and some other past subject. identities I just need help with inverse functions. vnks VON!! ((:

Im starting to like physics too, ah short aka Lim Peh aka Teck Huat makes studying physics fun. and as for chinese, im swapping to B syllabus and mdm ang has agreed to help me with it every friday. hehe, i hope this investments will have a good outcome. you reap what you sow. Chemistry is starting to get difficult, we're starting alot of practicals now. and its quite complicated yet fun, got HCl over my hands. eek? and someone's testtube blew up upon heating; owned.

History is still the same, the last Singh standing(Jasbir) is still horny, lazy and retarded, still makes fun of teachers and other people. haha, but it too is time to get serious with everything. SS is going good too, thanks to ate (: hehe.

Representing school in Science Fair again on the Friday 14th July at Victoria JC, second time there already, haha. Ive gotta work on the template of the powerpoint as well as the poster! Wish me luck =D

vien loves thee,
LOVE LOVES;

Btw, blueisee

Speak but a whisper,
You have my attention.